My Journey

On top of all this you are dealing with the expectations of everyone else has of you. You constantly wonder if people believe you are really sick as they only see you on your good days when you look OK, not when you are collapsed on the sofa wondering if you should use your remaining energy to wash or to eat.

You are consumed by feelings of helplessness and anxiety, and an overwhelming frustration that you have such a lack of control about your life now, it seems to be dictated by hospital appointments and doctors.

You’re torn between feeling like you can’t let your illness ruin your life and the fact that you have to listen to your body and rest.  

You’ve been told that this is progressive, life long, a disability, so you’d better just get your head around it and put up with the hand that you have been dealt.

Where have YOU even gone in all this.  

This was my story.  I figured that I would just get on with my life, focus on everyone else keep pretending to myself and the world that I was OK and paper over the cracks. I wouldn’t let my ever growing list of chronic illness’ define me.  But they did, by hiding, by pretending, I wasn’t being me and they had control.

nI still have my chronic illness’ no magic pills where that is concerned, but I learned to accept them and made a decision to redefine the way I lived my life. I gave a shit and took back control.

Then bam, just when I thought I had a handle on this chronic illness stuff one of my kids became quite sick. I totally underestimated the overwhelming rollercoaster of emotions and how disconnected I would become from the real world. It was ten times harder than dealing with it for me as every – sigle- thing in my life felt out of my control.

But, I wanted to show my kids that living with a chronic illness or disability is not a life sentence.  To lead by example.  So, I took control, I changed the things that I told myself I couldn’t or shouldn’t do into things that I could.  I began to own my life again.

I get frustrated that we live in a world where we are diagnosed with conditions that impact our whole lives but the medical system is so stretched and fragmented we struggle to access thorough testing or any services that really help to manage things positively long term, especially the massive changes that a diagnosis brings to your life.

I get frustrated that we live in a world where asking for help, or admitting we haven’t got it all figured out, is seen as self-indulgent or fucked up, when in fact, I know the exact opposite to be true.

I know, because I would never admit to anyone that I wasn’t fine… the pretence and subterfuge was my secret weapon.  Like a swan, calm and serene, but paddling like crazy just beneath the surface just to keep going.  And who wants to just be just fine anyway? Why can’t people with chronic illness live extraordinary lives, just like everyone else?

It’s this belief that forms the foundation of my writing and coaching approach. I’m honest and will always I hold you accountable with plenty of love and kindness.

I’m here to help you to become empowered.

I’m a certified Master Life Coach, Master NLP practitioner as well as a qualified teacher, but beyond the shiny certificates on my wall I have learnt to help people to live their best lives through lessons that I’ve learnt in my own.

From wanting to hide away from the world because the effort to just hold a simple conversation with a friend was too much, to feeling stripped of the career that I’d trained so hard for and feeling the paralysing overwhelm as two of my three children began collecting their own list of chronic illnesses.

Then moving my family half way across the UK, to our dream house in the country – at the same time as getting an EHC plan in place for one of my kids (if you know how hard this is, then you know!) whilst juggling the family business and three kids, two with their own health crap going on.  All while having limited mobility.  Life is tough… but we can do hard things.  

I have lived my life struggling with the impact of chronic illness on me – the years (decades) before diagnosis that were clouded by dis-belief and after that the impact that the actual diagnoses’ brought with them, both on the here and now and the plans that I had for my future.  Then, much harder than for myself, I’ve had to deal with it all over again in stereo for the kids.

But that’s when it hit me square in the heart – we all get to choose who we are and how we live our lives.  As for me? I choose to live a simple life in the English countryside with my family. Doing things that put me a little outside my comfort zone, and spending my time with the people who make my heart happy – but most of all being me.

When I’m not coaching, I find myself walking my talk and signing up for things that will challenge me a little.  Although I am quite an introvert I love public speaking and each year I go to Brunel to advocate for Chronic illnesses in children.

I’m scared of birds, especially flappy ones, and yet we’ve bought a flock of chickens.  I’ve taught myself and will continue to teach myself, that the only way through is to act in spite of my fears.  To challenge myself to do the things the voice in my head tells me I can’t.

I also know how important it is to have balance in your life when you have a chronic illness so practicing what I preach also involves listening to my body and not beating myself up if it decides to throw me a curve ball every now and then.

This is why my coaching is effective. I’m very familiar with the hurdles that my clients come up against – because I’ve been there myself. I teach what I know from a place of deep personal experience and understanding.

I believe that I can do most things I put my mind to. And I believe that my clients can do most things they put their mind to, too. 

The bottom line is that you can change your life for the better. It’s totally within your reach, even if it feels just about as likely as running a marathon.

All you need is the right amount of help to get you moving. 

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